I really see you upside down. But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you 'round.

Aw, I really love that song. Like, a lot. It's so simple but it manages to illustrate the way we percieve the world in a way that jives with what we expect to see and hear and experience. "This is fact not fiction". Although the lines between fact and fiction sometimes blur so much that you really can't tell what from which and you're left with nothing but an empty notion of truth and justice.

I was talking to my friend last night about the Amish fiasco a few days ago. Well, to be exact, it was more of me talking and my friend just listening because I was kind of going on and on - which happens sometimes. I was talking about how when I read the news reports on the incident (I don't even know what to call it) I kept picturing this specific imagery : Like, a family cowering underneath a terrible darkness, a terrible evil. I was telling them, that in a way we always need that terrible evil to complete the goodness in the world. We need the best of humanity settled - touching shoulder to shoulder - with the worst of humanity so that we have something complete and entirely human. It's essential and needed but not really wanted at the same time.

But, if you really think about it, if there were no conflict, if no one died of homicide or murder or manslaughter or whatever, would we be living in a utopia on Earth? Or would we be dead in heaven? Sometimes when I watch the old Star Trek episodes (The Next Generation or Voyager only) I find that their society is extremely immature - idealistic - stupid. For those who don't know, the Star Trek universe is set in future Earth in which there are no nationalistic feelings since there are no nations. There is no currency and people don't seem to have "jobs". Everyone joins Starfleet - the military, I think. So, its a militaristic state? Which would, intuitively, increase the nationalistic feelings. Which it does if you consider the whole of the Starfleet Federation of whatever they call it, a nation.

Nevermind the conflicts between nations but focus on the seemingly vanilla society within Starfleet. It's like, its dead. Static.

But perhaps, it's the 21st century mind talking and when we become more "enlightened" in the 23rd or 24th century, we can really be trusted to live in peace without money or soda drinks.

This post did not even make sense. I'm just typing.

I can't wait until the weekend. I'm seeing Deanna on Saturday so we can buy wood and whatever to build our door frame. Then on Sunday I'll be at Outfest. I get to hang out with Deanna, Rob and his boyfriend - Dan, and more importantly I get to see Colin! Tomorrow (Friday) Common Ground is having a meeting on coming out stories. I do not want to go but I guess I must.

And I have a bunch of scholarships to apply for. Yay. :(