Today I was learning how to make more IV's at my job. The IV I was making today were Morphine Sulfates - basically used for people who's life is ending so their suffering is less. Each dose is more than the previous since they are in more pain. Anyway, I was making it and I guess I didn't put the needle into the IV bag straight and it went through the little tube and stuck me in the finger. Oddly, no pain. But it was bleeding and now I am typing with a bandaged finger. It's weird but whatever.

But what really is on my mind tonight is this: I think its "strange" how many people's lives that I have touched. Not in the "I'm saving lives" kind of way but more of how people know me and how they will always remember me as being part of their lives at a certain point in their lives. Like, to my friends in high school I would live on forever in their memory as their high school friend. No one else will replace that image. I know its really hard to explain what I'm talking about.

Maybe in the context of lovers. Because that's how I am thinking about it in my head.

For example, say you go out and have a relationship with someone. That someone will then have their lives affected and influenced by you. It doesn't really sound weird or profound when I put it down into words on a screen but I guess the feelings associated with this thought is what is making me feel so weird. The people I've known and the people I've gotten intimate with will always be there in some form in my memory even if they have gone their separate ways. Its their influence that has a certain quality to it. No one lives in a bubble without any human contact, you know?

I guess maybe because it's 1:00 AM and I have just been doing physics homework (which started to make less sense) but I'm feeling influential tonight. And I want to touch somebody.