Stick it in. I mean, stick to it.
Saturday, August 05, 2006Capricorn December 22 - January 19
Stick to your plans, even if you feel discouraged. Discipline and hard work will help you dig your way through to hit the gold ore so that you can hit the town, reaping your rewards in the social sphere.
For your information, this was the Yahoo! Teen version of the horoscopes. But I think it was the most revelant towards my life.
Today, I worked. When I woke up today, I felt so depressed. Like, "Why the hell wasn't that dream real?" I don't remember what the dream was so don't ask me. But I remember that it was nice and everything was perfect. And when waking up, reality just kind of sneaks up on you and bites you in the ass.
Is it pompous of me to not consider having sex a few days ago really having sex? I mean, it was one of those "I am so lusting after you and since you're staying over in my bed, why not" sort of things. But at the same time, I am in love with him even if nothing is ever going to come out of it because we're so separated by our lives. I need a boyfriend.
Last night I was talking to Deanna online and I told her this. She told me that she needs a girl too. The last time I saw her, she was holdng some red head's hand (the redhead was very pretty) but apparently, those things fell apart? I feel bad though, I always held hope that lesbians would have the stable relationships in our gay family. I have to find her a girl. And she has to find me a boy.
What's my perfect boy? I know I have already wrote this before in this blog but things change.
Anyway, perfect boy.
1.) he has to be around my height. I'm 5'4". He should not be shorter than me (except for, at most, an inch) and he should not be 6'. I want him to be 5'8" -ish.
2.) not fat. not skinny. Average. Someone who wouldn't make me feel fat either.
3.) Biting. Biting. Biting. No blood though.
4.) big cock.
5.) someone with a sense of curiosity and humor. Preferred science majors. English majors okay, only if they read interesting books.
6.) can speak a different language a plus.
7.) enjoys public displays of affection (i almost wrote pubic)
8.) enjoys movies
9.) enjoys music
10.) Doesn't mind me filming our sex. (joking.)
People, don't flood my inbox with applications and inquiries.
Today, I worked. When I woke up today, I felt so depressed. Like, "Why the hell wasn't that dream real?" I don't remember what the dream was so don't ask me. But I remember that it was nice and everything was perfect. And when waking up, reality just kind of sneaks up on you and bites you in the ass.
Is it pompous of me to not consider having sex a few days ago really having sex? I mean, it was one of those "I am so lusting after you and since you're staying over in my bed, why not" sort of things. But at the same time, I am in love with him even if nothing is ever going to come out of it because we're so separated by our lives. I need a boyfriend.
Last night I was talking to Deanna online and I told her this. She told me that she needs a girl too. The last time I saw her, she was holdng some red head's hand (the redhead was very pretty) but apparently, those things fell apart? I feel bad though, I always held hope that lesbians would have the stable relationships in our gay family. I have to find her a girl. And she has to find me a boy.
What's my perfect boy? I know I have already wrote this before in this blog but things change.
Anyway, perfect boy.
1.) he has to be around my height. I'm 5'4". He should not be shorter than me (except for, at most, an inch) and he should not be 6'. I want him to be 5'8" -ish.
2.) not fat. not skinny. Average. Someone who wouldn't make me feel fat either.
3.) Biting. Biting. Biting. No blood though.
4.) big cock.
5.) someone with a sense of curiosity and humor. Preferred science majors. English majors okay, only if they read interesting books.
6.) can speak a different language a plus.
7.) enjoys public displays of affection (i almost wrote pubic)
8.) enjoys movies
9.) enjoys music
10.) Doesn't mind me filming our sex. (joking.)
People, don't flood my inbox with applications and inquiries.
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