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This is the book I write, Oh why'd I let it go so long?

Saturday, March 31, 2007

It reminds me, this song, at how our lives can be one long and uninteresting narrative punctuated by short bursts of excitement and song. Take, for example, a sunny day. Any sunny day, really. Doesn't really matter if its tomorrow or yesterday, a thousand years ago or a thousand years from now. What's different? What's the same? If I stood over here would things be less sunny than if I had stood over there?

Probably. But overall, it's a nice day. Do you think empires fall on nice sunny days? Do you think homes are smashed, dreams evaporated and people change on nice sunny days? No, nice sunny days are boring, uninteresting and generally very similar to each other. On nice sunny days, the only thing you can comment on is "Nice weather, eh?" and the only reply to this is "Quite, quite."

I was at work today and I was poking the touch screens at the terminal, withdrawing and depositing Nexium or some other drug when a nurse comes in and asks me if there was anything she can steal from the already open drawer (since everything is mechanically locked). She said, "Of course not because if it was here, it'll be all too easy. And when life is easy, you know you're dead."

(Which is an appropriate comment since we were already in the hospital. Well, maybe not. Since hospitals are where people go in hopes of getting better. But you get the point.)

When life is easy, you know you're just in a long and drawn out narrative, an endless string of sunny days and weather patterns that you can't really comment on or squeeze out a decent conversation. We all know that all the action comes from rainy days, blizzards, depressing overcast and shitty evenings on the sidewalk.

But I like them. I like those shitty moments with the rain in my face, the wind blasting my face and that moment of growing up. I think I definitely need more of these. Of course, sunny days once in a while wouldn't hurt either.

Besides, we all know that its usually safe on the second sunny day to sit on the grass, its sure to be dry by then.

  1. Anonymous Anonymous said:

    1. "it reminds me, this song, at how" IT REMINDS YOU AT? NOTHING REMINDS YOU AT. IT REMINDS YOU OF

    2. i'm sure homes are smashed and dreams evaporated on sunny days. horrific things happen in the mid east all the time. and it's mainly bright and sunny there.

    3. narrative is just a word for story. and stories, as a rule, have dilemmas and things that happen.

    4. "We all know that all the action comes from rainy days, blizzards, depressing overcast and shitty evenings on the sidewalk." NO. my car was snowed in over the st. patrick's day weekend. i missed two parties. had it not snowed. i might have kissed a stranger or danced around in my underwear. without the snow, there would have been scandal. which is to say. because of shitty weather, NOTHING HAPPENED

    and when it rains, people say they like to "stay inside and read a book"

    and when it's overcast, i feel half-asleep all day and tend not to accomplish anything

    5. stop letting your emo genre dictate what sort of weather you like. i'm sure it already affects your clothes, your voice, vocabulary, hairstyle, interests, energy level, and probably even food. (or how much you think you love robots and zombies?)



    6. good job making the connection between hardship and personal growth. youre an insightful kid but please quit the pseudodeep writing. youre treating your audience like a bunch of retards

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