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Thursday, January 04, 2007So I'm leaving for the western portion of our nation tomorrow, specifically CA. But before I do, I just want to jot down some of my thoughts of this past week.
My birthday was the Wednesday of this week. I spent three days - Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday - in the company of my boyfriend Chris. And I'm not really sure what to say. Needless to say I had a great time with him. And I learned so many things about him. Like how if the light hits his eyes a certain way, those dull brown eyes of his look spectacular. Or those little bumps on his stomach which he claims are not abs. Or how his feet and legs are so hairy it reminds me of Pan.
And I found out a few things about me too. Like how clingy I am but also how clingy I was. When I was with Matt or even with Colin, I was so clingy. I wanted to see them, touch them all the time and I found it hard to not be with them. But, I guess mostly due to Colin, I felt some sort of growth inside me that matured me and slapped me upside the head. I learned to lessen my grip a little. And it has helped me greatly in my relationship with Chris. I mean, it's never possible to see someone 24/7 even if you're living with them. Everyone needs some space. But when I find that I haven't seen Chris online in a few days (he's usually on everyday) I do get a little nervous but I don't necessarily freak out about it. Which is what I would be doing if it were about a year ago. Now, I know that he's busy and we'll chat some other time. I know that he's mine and I'm his, etc.
With this being said, the past few days was an overdose of Chris. And then I won't be seeing him for quite some time. Well, hopefully not that long. But I'm not too worried. There's always e-mail and the Internet and phones. Now, I can find the happy medium between holding on tightly and giving someone his space to breathe.
Yum, I love breathing.
My birthday was the Wednesday of this week. I spent three days - Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday - in the company of my boyfriend Chris. And I'm not really sure what to say. Needless to say I had a great time with him. And I learned so many things about him. Like how if the light hits his eyes a certain way, those dull brown eyes of his look spectacular. Or those little bumps on his stomach which he claims are not abs. Or how his feet and legs are so hairy it reminds me of Pan.
And I found out a few things about me too. Like how clingy I am but also how clingy I was. When I was with Matt or even with Colin, I was so clingy. I wanted to see them, touch them all the time and I found it hard to not be with them. But, I guess mostly due to Colin, I felt some sort of growth inside me that matured me and slapped me upside the head. I learned to lessen my grip a little. And it has helped me greatly in my relationship with Chris. I mean, it's never possible to see someone 24/7 even if you're living with them. Everyone needs some space. But when I find that I haven't seen Chris online in a few days (he's usually on everyday) I do get a little nervous but I don't necessarily freak out about it. Which is what I would be doing if it were about a year ago. Now, I know that he's busy and we'll chat some other time. I know that he's mine and I'm his, etc.
With this being said, the past few days was an overdose of Chris. And then I won't be seeing him for quite some time. Well, hopefully not that long. But I'm not too worried. There's always e-mail and the Internet and phones. Now, I can find the happy medium between holding on tightly and giving someone his space to breathe.
Yum, I love breathing.
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January 05, 2007 11:55 AM
Hehehe you are so cute. I love your blog :) Keep up the good work.
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